Hic. Talking about phobias, in case the whole entire world does not know yet, i have a phobia for needles.
I flinch whenever i see needles going through skin,
and whenever i have to take injections myself,
a big fuss generally occurs. :D
I am pretty proud of my phobia!
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Anyway, yoodee yozzah!
The group and i have submitted the Marketing Plan. Yes. Finally.
Thanks to Nuraini for dumping it in, you suck ahahaha! :)
But oh well, suddenly it's so carefree now.
Li Fang wants me to say that the mascot she designed, endearingly named PokkaTy, is incredibly cute.
Yes. I know it is cute. That girl is graphic designer material i tell you! :P

10 years later when she's a famed graphic designer, someone will call me a prophet. HAHA!

Okay, back to listening to *ahem's* boring lecture. *Sigh.
At least i have work today! Yay! :D
And work tomorrow and work the day after tomorrow too.
Good distractions from heartbreaking issues. Hmmm.



missjolintan holding up the baby, the completed assignment! Oh, how precious! :)

but behind the smile is something you will never know or see...

This morning, woke up to Eug's (not the Eugene in my class, it's another Eugene) message of,
"So, how does it feel after a night of sleep?"

And the first thought that zoomed past my mind was,
I don't feel anything different from yesterday morning.

I'm just so numbed out of this entire thing, my lovely little heart that keeps blood from coursing through my entire body has been scarred, it seems like i'm immuned to bad news.

Totally. Yesterday i woke up not having what i want to have badly, today i woke up, and i still didn't have it either.
Only a few words exchanged, it barely makes any difference, does it?

I finally know the reasons why people can wall up their entire heart. I finally know.
You just don't feel like letting it break again.
But why does it still hurt so much?

Gawd. This is so hard.

Help.

I would always be still and wait in the silence, thinking that you'll come and sit awhile with me.
But you never do.
You know i would wait even if you never asked, but you always choose to let me go.
Perhaps i'm just not worth it.
It's okay, tonight after i sleep, tomorrow goes on.
Even when you know i'm going through an emotional wreck,
you'll still be so far away.

Goodnight, dearest.

I'm still lurking at one of the table-benches outside of the lecture halls in school. :)
I know it's a bit late, but the group and I just finished Marketing Plan Group Assignment!
Oh my god, can you believe? I thought i would never live to see this, hahahaha!

Yes, we have come such a long way and it's finally the end! *prances around!

Thanks to all of you for the effort, yeah? :D

Anyway, the flu is still around to stay, gah. I am very germ-y. :(

Life has been okay, whatever doesn't kill me, makes me stronger. <3

That's all for today! I'm sorry it's such a short and uninformative update, but marketing just killed all my brain cells, y'see! LOL.

And i'll be making my way home soon, just waiting a while more for Decker to be fully charged!

-Back In Your Arms Again, Finally!-

all of a sudden, no one seems to want me anymore. :(
i hate this, friends who come and go oh so fast.
you people break my heart oh so so much.
:(

Media and Society - A.
I thank the high heavens and my tutor. <3
It was awesome.
:)

That's the only good thing of today.

Goodmorning! :D

I'm in Marketing lecture now and nope, don't get me wrong, I AM paying attention! :) I just can multi-task super well, please believe it. But seriously, I can. Hahaha!

Anyway, have you guys ever got gut feelings?
Like you know how things are going to work out so good eventually, even when they have just began.

To you, my new friend, you are just simply amazing.
I don't know how to put it, but just know you are.
You amuse me, you make me laugh,
and we have the best conversations ever.

It's been a long time since i felt this way,
a twinkle in the heart, a sparkle in the eye... ...

Getting back Media & Society Individual Assignment grades later. Goodness. I know it won't be anywhere near good, *sigh.

But maybe, with you around, i can survive this afterall.

Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)

This morning was horrible, thanks to Singapore Bus Service (SBS), again!
Seriously! I know they are a monopoly (like what i've learnt in marketing),
i don't have a choice but to take their buses, but they have no need to torture me to this extent.

Oh why, do I have to wait so long for the bus?
And when the bus comes, it's a single deck which I have no choice but to share with more people who are rushing to work and school.
School. Most of the people who take the same service as I do have the same destination as me!
That means for the entire journey, barely anyone gets down.
And if you don't get a seat, you have to stand the entire journey.
Which is what happened to me today. :(

Look, i seriously don't mind standing, but i had my hands full of things today!
I had my phone, which i was plugging into music.
I had Decker, which is a pampered ass that demands to be carried all the time.
I had my Marketing textbook which weighs a ton with all its concepts and theories.
I had my water bottle which is very fond of leaking.

SBS, to put it simply, you totally suck.
You're one of the reasons why i am so desperate to get a driver's license. Really.

Anyway, i studied Marketing yesterday,
from an insane time of 3 am to 5 am!
Don't get me wrong, i'm not utterly hardworking,
i just felt like doing so.
Furthermore, i have a new friend to talk to online!
He stays up till very late! :P
(Yes you, bunny-pig hybrid, don't deny it! :D)

Plus, examinations are coming. The timetable is already out! :o
Look! :(

Examination Time Table for TAN LI FANG JOLIN
Student : 0805450D TAN LI FANG JOLIN
Academic Year : 2008/2009
Course : DIPLOMA IN COMMUNICATIONS & MEDIA MANAGEMENT

Subject Date Start End Seat No

Media & Society 25 Aug 08 (Mon) 09:30 11:30 5
Communications & Media Marketing 26 Aug 08 (Tue) 09:30 11:30 611
Essential Graphic Software 27 Aug 08 (Wed) 09:30 11:30 49


Right. You get my point.

Time to hit the books too, and no, the flu is still here to stay.

As a bit of more random stuff, yesterday someone mentioned Bedok Reservoir to me (it's incredibly near my school), and i was like, hahaha! If i had a boyfriend we'd go there everyday, lay on the grass and watch the clouds above us float by. Awesome?

Just spending time together, enjoy each other's presence. :)
That's how simple it could get, and how simple it should be.

Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)

My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There`s nothing left to say
But goodbye

I guess many would agree with me that today has been an eventful day, thanks to Media & Society group assignment.

Seriously, the last 3 hours till submission was a horror itself.
All the odds seemed to be stacked against us.

Cannot change font, cannot change graph, cannot edit picture size ya-da ya-da ya-da! It was like a complete mess.
And to make it worse, the printers in the labs are always so bitchy! :(

But thankfully, the group managed to survive and handed it in half and hour before the deadline! Yay! Hahaha! It was so insane. :D But awesome guys, we have 18 pages of good stuff!

Rushing to the lab to open it and edit it, rushing to the lab to print it, rushing to the library to get it bound and then remembering half-way through that we forgot to include the surveys, lol.

Thankfully we printed the surveys at the library, and got it binded there too.

And when we were running past Justin to the staff room, he was like,

"You guys have got it printed and binded already?"

I was too anxious and in a mad rush, i just waved the entire thing in his face.

His reply was classic, "Oh my god!"

But of course, his group made it on time too!
So did Jinnie's/Jaclyn's/Michelle's group!

Yay! We were like so happy outside the staff room.
That kind of jubilant and relief cannot be described, seriously!
I never knew Poly life was like that, hahaha!

Sorry to be a wet blanket here, but we still have Marketing.
Argghhh! :(

And i have the flu.
Tell me, how is it possible that i have to blow my nose twice in five minutes?
Clearly, phelgm produces at an astonishing rate that amazes me.

It's time to hit the tissues, again. Gah. :(

Okay, cranky, cranky, cranky. :(
Flu leh, sneeze, sneeze, sneeze, more yucky phelgm, more yucky phelgm... ... you get the picture. *sigh.

Anyway work has been good today, not much crowd though. :(
Morning was cashier! Yay! I like to be cashier!

Halfway through, Samuel monkey-face took 20 dollars from my register, came back from Popular and the DIY store and got a lot of stuff. Haha, today he creativity overflow lah!

He started to design memo board and delivery order board for kitchen. Damn amusing, then he kept asking me to help him write labels. :) But hey, i must say, his ideas are good! :D

And to show that i have no lack of creativity, this is the board that my "boss", Samuel monkey-face, has proudly asked me to decorate.

To begin with, i shouldn't have been so happy when the sore throat i had a few days back disappeared after 2 days. Because, i should have known, and now i know why. It was slowly evolving into a flu. Now, the flu bug has hit me too. :(

OMGWTFBBQ SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME!!! o_0

Right, you get the point.
Anyway, it's 9.09 AM now, i start work at 10 AM (with a flu), and when i'm sick, i'm a cranky idiot. Aughhh.

And in case you were wondering why i wasn't online yesterday, i conked out. I swear, when i reached home, had dinner, i was like, "okay, i shall do Medsoc later, but now i need to close my eyes a little."

The next thing i knew, it was morning, rise and shine! :D

Hahaha. Yesterday was fun anyway! Who doesn't have fun when they are around with new friends, who at their best, are at most a little bit sane? LOL, so thank you very much, in no order of preference that is, Yanxi (Kangaroo feet), Jian Hong (Puppy), Desmond (Bunny feet) and Jian Xiong (Monkey) and the many many others and of course, the residents too. :)

Okay yes, i know, i tend to give people weird nicknames. :P

Although, at some of point, my head was wondering around work, thinking of Sakae and how busy it would have been for the others while i was looking at things, like Polar Bear feeding time.

OMG. It was so cute!!! :D Have you ever seen Polar Bear's feet before! They are just so adorable lah!!! I was gushing over their feet, LOL. And as if that was not enough, halfway through the commentary, the zookeeper was like,

"Do you know how small Inuka (the polar bear) was, when he was just a day old?"

"Only approximately 450 grammes!"

"Something like ... ..."

*whips out POLAR BEAR STUFFED TOY from her pocket*

"THIS!"

When i saw the Polar Bear stuffed toy i was like whoa hahahahaha. It was cute beyond belief, okays. And i want it. :(
Hahahahahaha, when will misstan get enough of stuffed animals?

Never, i think. :D

PS: And tonight i shall churn out MedSoc so that the group and i can edit it tomorrow and submit it on time. Yay, people!
We. Can. Do. This.

I have confidence in the Mad Socks! :D

Have a happy happy Sunday, everyone! :)